fill me up...

I love, love, love fall. This coming season will be different with five little ones and homeschooling. It feels like there are important, God-given priorities that I have no doubt I'm supposed to be doing, but I don't want to get so lost in doing them {even good things} that I forget the Source of life in the first place. I don't want to start going my own way. I don't want to seek after stupid things like pleasing myself on this earth in the very few years I get to live.

If there's a theme song- a prayer on my heart- for this fall, I long for it to be this:

Fill me up God...

Jesus, empty me of me- make me forget myself- my insecurities, my own desires, the things I love more than you, and fill me up with YOU, Father. Jesus, I want you. Nothing else is worth my life. Fill me up with your Spirit. Become my joy, my passion, my only reason for living, Jesus. Your name is written on my heart- in the depths of my soul, and I have nothing else to cling to but you in this world. Make me overflow with your Spirit, to reflect your glory and your love, not my own. We praise you for this day, Lord, for it is yours, and yours alone. Thank you for giving us life- may it be for you, Lord Jesus.

Do you have a theme song or big prayer for fall?


  1. Mandy,

    I've been following your blog for some time now, but this is my first time commenting. The song above is so precious to me! I gave birth to my first child nearly 2 years ago, and I experienced a season of intense postpartum depression for about 6 months after she was born.

    On one particular day I was really struggling, my sweet little girl was playing on the floor while I was folding laundry. I was praying for the Lord's help when this song came on my Pandora station. The first line stopped me in my tracks: "You provide the fire, I'll provide the sacrifice." The Lord instantly spoke to my heart and said, "This season is a fire I am asking you to walk through; but instead of letting it burn you up, I want to see you use it as a time to lay yourself down on the altar and make a sacrifice to Me."

    Needless to say, I bawled my eyes out and realized that my struggle was a gift He had given me. This song has been so precious to me ever since! Thank you for sharing and for devoting so much time to this blog; it has also been a wonderful gift to me as I learn to navigate the waters of motherhood!

  2. I saw the title of your post in my blog feed and immediately started singing that song!!! My in-laws are in Redding right now, at Healing House, having a great time and being filled up (he's a pastor - so important for pastors to take time to visit other spiritual leaders and receive!).

    Anyway just had to say it! Not bragging but more in awe. I just love the Johnson family and can relate to their parenting and everything so much.

  3. Fill me up!
    Just did worship leading at church this past weekend. I think often the time I feel most close to Him is when I stop everything else and worship. Just letting me be consumed in worship.
    What is it for you?

  4. to follow and be obiediant to what God has planned for us and our family. I *know* what we are supposed to do but being human and selfishily human at that it's been hard to think of what we will have to "give up" to be obedient.


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