this baby had a 79% chance of survival in our country

This little guy is 8 months old.

I'm so thankful for his sweet little smile:

He is greatly loved.

At 8 months, little Zane:
learned to stand and move along his playpen
will work so hard to get something he wants
is getting taller/thinning out from all his MOVING :) {He still weighs about 23.5-24 lbs.}
still nurses mostly
ate and loved avocado, sweet potatoes, bananas, applesauce, oatmeal, kale, and carrots
caught his paci as it fell out of his mouth - he has lightning fast reflexes!
kicked the chair in front of us at church as I was holding him and nearly knocked me down :P
waved "bye-bye" and said "buh buh" with it for the first time {and several times after}
loves to kiss his mama {a.k.a. chew on my jaw}
is getting his first bottom teeth- the earliest of any of my children!
is starting to assume crawling position but hasn't moved yet
slept through the night for the first time
loves to jump in his jumper
is a good, easy baby :)

 There's just nothing like watching a baby grow up and learn new things. It just doesn't get old. :)

I love him so much. I don't know why, but when I hold him and love on him, I can't shake this heavy feeling.

So many babies don't see the light of day. 

Millions of pregnancies happened last year, and 21% of those precious babies were murdered by abortion.

Thinking about that number, Zane could have been placed in a room with four other tiny, innocent babies, and one out of the five of them would have been torn into pieces before he even had the chance to cry.

I don't understand it. It's such a great evil, and it's so powerful- so covered in darkness and deception- it's unfathomable that in our time and day, we kill babies in the womb.

Our people- our neighbors- are committing the most treacherous act humanity has ever seen. 

Is there anything worse than brutally killing innocent people? 

What about the tiniest, most fragile, most incapable of all people?

It's sickness. It's the worst kind of tragedy. And it's happening every single day in our cities.

Why? Why does God not destroy us for this kind of atrocity? Why does He wait? 

He must be so very patient with us- giving us more time to repent. He is not slow as some count slowness:

8But do not overlook this one fact, beloved, that with the Lord one day is as a thousand years, and a thousand years as one day. 9The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you,a not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance. 10But the day of the Lord will come like a thief, and then the heavens will pass away with a roar, and the heavenly bodiesb will be burned up and dissolved, and the earth and the works that are done on it will be exposed.c 2 Peter 3

His glory will be made evident in the end.

The people of this nation will face a final judgment. The works done on this earth will be exposed. And Christians, we will have to stand before Him for our deeds, good or bad. 

Satan wants us to go about our business, ignoring the fact that people are stumbling to the slaughter every single day. {Proverbs 24:11-12}

Why do we not care more? Why do we not stand out in the sidewalks of these places and beg these women to stop this? Can we not at least pray without ceasing for the lives of the innocent? Are we not responsible for our own lack of action?

Proverbs 24:
11Rescue those who are being taken away to death;
hold back those who are stumbling to the slaughter.
12If you say, “Behold, we did not know this,”
does not he who weighs the heart perceive it?
Does not he who keeps watch over your soul know it,
and will he not repay man according to his work?

My heart aches, because I know I haven't done this for the least of these. I've been so distracted by my own life that I've forgotten about the lives of those perishing every 30 seconds. It's evil. It's sinful. 

Oh Lord, God, please forgive me!! Please keep this at the forefront of our minds- help me to be willing to give up my own life and comfort for the sake of those precious babies.

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There are a few on the front lines, trying to hold back those mamas and daddies from killing their own children in person- and sadly, I've seen even other Christians mock them for it-  yet they are doing what no one else will do. 

Perhaps they are holding back even one person from the slaughter house- who are we to say? We are called to love, and yet many claim it is more loving to never say a word, but to show them love in other ways. Loving them with our actions is wonderful and right, and the truth is that abortion is a great deception- and killing innocent life is a sin. It would only be loving to try to stop someone from committing murder with my words and actions both, in love. If it were my own sister or mother or daughter, I would probably physically try to restrain her- why do I not care with that kind of passion for the lost?

How many women who've chosen that route regret it with all their heart? How many wish someone- anyone- would have stopped them, even if it hurt them to hear the truth? Wouldn't it be more loving for me to tell to my child to stop running out in the road while I run after him to stop him?  By speaking up, I might stop him with my words before he gets there, and save him from terrible pain or even death. And unspeakable sadness. 

I believe we can speak up in love and with grace, through the power of the Holy Spirit- knowing that so many have walked through this nightmare and are hurting and need Jesus just like we do. We are all- ALL- desperately in need of a Savior.

Oh sweet friends, please know- if you have had an abortion, there is absolutely grace and mercy and peace for you when you repent from your sin and turn with all your heart to Jesus Christ for salvation. His blood covers our sin and washes us clean. If you have been saved, there is no condemnation in Christ Jesus. You are forgiven, only through the sacrifice of the Lamb of God, who takes away your sin! Confess it before Him, bring it into the light, and find peace in Christ alone. 

And please know this- no matter who you are, or what you've done or haven't done- every single one of us has sinned and fall short of the glory of God {Romans 3:23}. And if you have never known salvation through faith in Christ Jesus, judgment and eternal condemnation await you. 

We all equally deserve this punishment for our sin. One day, you will stand before God, and be condemned because you didn't believe. John 3:17-18: For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him.18Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God. 

Repent from your sin, believe in the Lord Jesus- whose blood paid the ransom for your sins and be saved. {Acts 3:19-20, Isaiah 55:6-7, Romans 10:9-13} There can only be one master in your life- will it be yourself or the Lord Jesus Christ?

Christians- we know that we have been called to abide in the Word of God and obey the words of our Father and walk in love {1 John 3}. Are you walking in truth? Is the Lord Jesus the master of your life? Do you desire to please Him? We will all give an account! What are you doing with your talents? We are called to run the race and fight the good fight of faith. Are you growing in love for the Lord and others? Consider your own heart, and seek hard after God while you are still living. He will not turn you aside when you seek Him with all your heart.

We who believe in Jesus can be light and a witness to those who are going to the abortion mills- there are groups like Abolish Human Abortion and websites like Sidewalks 4 Life, who help us to learn how to pray and go out and love others like Jesus in some of the hardest places to go.

Maybe you can't physically meet with those who are at abortion clinics for some reason, but you can pray for and support those who do go. There are ministries where you can pray for women who are still deciding- Facebook pages and Abolitionist groups where you can see the faces of those out in the streets as well as those who are trying to share the Gospel with them. You can help them buy tracts and support them in prayer and with words of encouragement in a very dark and difficult task.

If you have had an abortion in the past and found forgiveness through Christ Jesus- would you please consider sharing your testimony and being a light as well? You know from experience what happens in the darkness of those places, before and after it's over- perhaps your story might make another woman reconsider? 

You have a testimony to the healing power of Christ in your life that is firsthand- and your story is invaluable to reach the lost. How did Jesus change your life? I'm praying about a way that we could make those anonymously public if you want to share them, so that we can bring light to the darkness. Abort 73 will also share your testimony anonymously. There are so many ways anyone can get involved listed there.

Even the smallest of babes, the tiniest of cells in the womb- is a blessing from the Lord. May the Lord give us the eyes to see and the ears to hear what is going on around us so that we can fall on our face before Him, crying out for Him to save us from our sin.

Oh Lord, God we come to you, our hearts broken for these women who have been through and are going through with abortions. We know that loss of a little life affects every single one them, forever. We know your healing is the only hope they have, and that your love is greater than all of our sins, because it is the only hope any of us have, no matter what we have done. All sin is evil in your sight, Lord, and we know that our very best righteousness is as filthy rags in comparison to your holiness. Please forgive us for what we all have done, Lord Jesus. We have all gone our own way.

Jesus, we need your Power. We need your love to overcome our selfish desires to please ourselves and avoid hard things. This is an overwhelmingly hard thing- so much spiritual warfare and deception  has pervaded this culture, but we know that you have overcome the world. We take heart in You, Lord, that You are in control, and that your glory will be made known to every nation, tribe, and tongue. Please give us direction- clear direction for how we can stand up against this great evil in your name, and rescue the perishing innocent life as well as the lives of the men and women involved in this darkness. We ask that you would help us to fight our tendency to keep our heads in the sand because it is easier. Please forgive our apathy, Lord Jesus. We desperately need your help. Please send out laborers into the field, in our country and in other countries so that some might be saved. In your glorious name we ask these things- please let us do your will, God, and not our own. 

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  1. We've recently had an announcement in our province that the one abortion clinic here will be closing in July due to lack of government funding. There are now petitions going around to fight for public funding - we are the only province to not publicly fund abortions. Those of us on the pro-life side are signing our own petition, and praying that this evil will be gone from our province for good. Precious, precious little lives. It's so heart-wrenching.

    1. OHHH- praying for it to close with you!!

  2. How sad! I believe that God wants us to be a voice for those who have none, whether it is because they are unborn or for some other reason. It's too easy for us to get caught up in the details of day to day life and ignore things that are going on outside our own small circle. Thanks for your passion in this area!

  3. Thank you for the love with which you share these words, Mandy. The love you have for people is so evident.
    One of my favorite organizations is Save the Storks, a group that park their mobile ultrasound units outside abortion clinics and offers free ultrasounds to women before they go inside.
    Thank you for writing about this today!

  4. I am afraid that if I went to a clinic, I would end up begging some poor girl/woman not to abort, but to give their child to me. I (and so many others) desperately long for a child, and there are so many people who don't see pregnancy for the miracle it truly is. If only.. if only.

    1. I know how you feel, I would be begging them to hold on for just a while longer, then they can walk away if they still feel they need to:(

    2. But I think we should not just be ready to adopt the baby, but ready to support that woman in keeping her baby. Maybe that means opening our homes as a safe place. Maybe it means supporting her if her boyfriend/family cuts her off or she loses her job because of complications. It's not just abortion or adoption.
      There's a third option: enabling her to care for her baby and helping her on the road to successful motherhood.

  5. Thank you thank you thank you for posting on this! Beautifully written. So much truth.

  6. My son was born with Trisomy 21 (down syndrome). He is healthy, happy, and amazing! He grows a little slower and takes a little longer doing some things... but he does everything every other baby does. He will most likely grow up to drive a car, have a job, live on his own, and get married. The possibilities are endless and he is an AMAZING gift from God to our family. The heartbreaking statistic that goes with that.... 92% of babies prenatally diagnosed with down syndrome are aborted. The statistic would be higher except for many babies are still not diagnosed until birth. If my son was in a room with nine other babies given the same diagnosis... he would be the only one to make it out alive. Thank you for your post and allowing me to share something very dear to my heart. We are doing our best to educate and show how amazing these little ones are. For anyone interested, on facebook or the web, is a wonderful Christian family raising a little boy just a little older than my son with down syndrome. They have some great articles and links.

    1. I also have a little boy with Down's syndrome. He is such a blessing to our family and has helped us and our other children so much in ways we could not have anticipated. I also have a child who was diagnosed with a cleft lip during pregnancy. Although no other abnormalities were found, I was shocked by how the doctor's attitude changed when the cleft had been found. I know doctors are obliged to give women the option of termination, but in really felt quite under pressure. I was told if I chose to continue with the pregnancy that I should expect a lot of her childhood to be spent in hospital. I have since found out that this is not the case at all. She is doing great now. I am so glad for my Christian faith which kept me strong and was the reason why abortion would never have been an option.

  7. So glad I ran across your blog. I, too, have a heart for the unborn. My heart aches for those sweet babes. And I often feel desperate for the lives that are being lost second after second not just in my city but all over this whole wide world. I work at a pregnancy center that provides free pregnancy tests and ultrasounds to women who find themselves in an unplanned pregnancy. While I've only been working at the Clinic two years, I have seen literal miracle after miracle. Maybe there is a clinic near you that you could volunteer at?

    Thankful for your words and your voice!

  8. Well if you're going to pay to take care of all those unplanned pregnancies then it is your right to try to outlaw it. Until then, keep your God out of my uterus.

    1. God has brought you here for a reason. He can be your God, too. He loves you more than you could ever know, and he is patiently waiting for you to come to him. That tugging at your heart...the feeling you are having...that's God calling you. Whatever you have done, he will forgive you! My heart aches for you.

    2. There are so many people who want to adopt infants. I think there needs to be a lot more adoption awareness that goes along with being pro-life. Pro-life should equal pro-adoption. As Christians we need to be willing to adopt these babies because there are plenty of situations where the birthparents are unable to raise the baby.

    3. Yes, who is going to care for all of these unwanted babies if abortion is illegal? Women will just try to kill the baby with drugs and/or alcohol, and then we end up with babies with fetal alcohol syndrome, addicted to crack/heroin and other learning disabilities as they grow...and then these children become dependent on welfare...our welfare system is already overtaxed as it is. Birthparents also KEEP the baby and then do a poor job of raising them because they see the kid as a meal ticket. I see it ALL.THE.TIME in the town where I live. CPS having to remove children from Section 8 homes because they're living in FILTH!!

      It's EXPENSIVE to adopt a child thru the system as it's currently set up! I don't have $30,000 to try to adopt a newborn baby or even a younger infant/toddler!

  9. For those of us that haven't had a nurturing Christian or even a loving non-Christian childhood and lack family support it can be VERY difficult to choose life. It doesn't excuse the wrong choice, but often, I'm afraid, the accusers have no idea....

  10. Hi Mandy,
    I love your blog and read it nearly everyday. So I am genuinely interested when I ask why you, and Christians in general, believe that others must follow your ways (such as trying to persuade a woman who would like an abortion to not get one). I want to say I am asking out of genuine curiosity, not to be annoying or anything. I was raised Christian and have since strayed from the Church, since I have a hard time being a part of any religion that, at its core, believes all people should believe the same thing.

    I am truly curious to see what you, and others, have to say to help me understand.

    1. I just want to respond to this because you said you were curious as to why. I think if a Christian wants others to believe the same as we do, it's just that we want to save the lost. If you'd found something wonderful, wouldn't you want to share it? But we're not destroying those who do not believe as we do, as some religions do. Most of us aren't even bothering those who don't believe as we do. We're simply sharing what we think is a wonderful thing. And on the abortion issue, If you saw one of those people that did the school shootings LEGALLY sanctioned because it was his right to pick and choose who should live, you would say something too. I don't judge the women that have fallen into the abortion trap. We all fall into hard times and make bad choices. However, I don't believe it should be LEGAL. It makes me nauseous to think about such a thing. Bleh. How could our society allow it? But at the end of the day, while we Christians may want to share how wonderful Jesus has made life for us, if you don't believe, you don't believe. We might secretly pray for you, but past that it is your choice.

    2. Sophie from FranceApril 17, 2014 at 3:08 AM

      You say that Christians in general, believe that others must follow their ways (especially abortion ) . I think is true (and we can agree or not with their ways). But don't forget that the society, in general, also wants that we must follow his ways, whatever your religion.
      I was unintentionally pregnant with my sixth child. It was difficult to be accepted by other that, no, I don't want an abortion, yes, I wanted to keep the baby and I knew it would not be easy. Doctors , my family, my friends - nobody told me " it's your choice, it's a good choice ". Each time, I heard " you're crazy to keep the baby" , "you are unconscious", "You already have 5, that is enough! " "If I were in your place I'll abort " ...Everybody had an opinion about it!!
      And I was not catholic at that time ( I was baptized later), so my decision to keep the baby was not religious, it was only my woman's rigth!
      What I mean is : yes , Christians can seem to want to impose their views, but in opposite, the society also wants it. And I 'm not sure this is better than pro-life . It is also "violent" for a woman who wants to keep her baby , she must be strong not to yield to the voice of many.
      ps: I live in France , perhaps it's different in US.

    3. I am thankful for your question. If you believe all religions are equal, it would make sense that any of them would suffice, and to let all men go their own way. But Jesus said, I am the way, the truth, and the life- no man comes to the Father, but through me. Only by repenting and believing in the name of Jesus will men be saved from an eternity apart from God- literal Hell. Written on every man's heart is the moral law- we know in our heart that killing, stealing, and raping is wrong without ever reading the Bible, but God gave us the law in His Word so that we might understand that we are unholy, and unrighteous {through the law came knowledge of sin}, so that we may know the mercy of the Holy God who saves us from our sins through the blood of His Son, Jesus.

      If I believe the Bible is true {and I do}, I'm called by Jesus, my Savior, to preach the Gospel to every living creature. Believe it or not, this is not easy for Christians to do by our nature. My sinful nature would rather go about my business and keep the truth to myself, but God has changed my heart to love and obey Him, and share the truth with the lost. I ache for the souls who reject God and go on their own way- they have no understanding of the truth- that they will are condemned for their unbelief to life apart from God now, and wrath and judgment through eternity in Hell later. And if they don't have anyone to tell them the truth of the Bible, how will they hear the only way they can be saved?

      I really believe that many, many people will suffer these things- and it's only the love of Christ that gives me a heart to share the gift of salvation with them. If I love people, I will want them to know the truth and be saved from their sin, and given a new heart like I was. I can't ever force anyone to believe, but I can use what tools God has given me to tell them about Jesus. :) It is truly my life's mission- to tell people about Jesus who saved me, and to bring glory to Him by teaching disciples in His name.

      Matthew- 28:18And Jesus came and said to them, “All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. 19Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, 20 teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”

      The Gospel is that Jesus died for your sins- you violated God's law if you've lied, stolen, lusted, or even hated. Jesus said that lusting is the same as committing adultery, and that hating your brother is the same as murder. From the heart, sin comes forth- and when you stand before God you will be condemned. There is no single person apart from Jesus who has not violated God's holy law who can go before God clean and pure by their own merit. We are sentenced by a just judge to death, and eternal life apart from God in Hell forever, {if you think about it- our "we're a good person" will not even get us out of a speeding ticket- we still have to pay the fine!!!}. Someone has to pay the fine for our sin, And that's what Jesus did on the cross. His perfect blood spilled out instead of ours. We were dead and HE saved us, but you cannot deny your own sin and deny Jesus and ever expect to be saved from Hell. Only by His blood are we washed clean, and you must humble yourself and repent from your wickedness and trust in Jesus to be covered by His blood. That's what I long for people to know- most people think they are good enough to go to Heaven- but that's not what the Bible says at all. They are blind, and I long for them to see.

      {I have to split up my answer so it would accept it as a comment}

    4. And even just for the practical side- abortion- I've seen firsthand how abortion destroys the souls of the women who do it. I lead a secret group of women who've been through abortion and I've heard testimony after testimony of the horror and guilt and destruction it brings to every woman it touches- my heart hurts for the women who have been through it. It's destruction reaches all parts of their lives. The other practical side- the baby at stake: If a pregnancy starts, it is human life, apart from the mother, and that innocent person is dying because his mother doesn't want him. A heart beat apart from the mother's is stopped. I truly believe that many of the mothers who are consciously choosing to go in for abortions know in their heart what they are doing, and that it is wrong, No matter whether you believe the Bible is true or not, we all know what right and wrong is. I long to keep them from a lifetime of pain and suffering, and as well as keep their child from death.

      I hope that answers some of your questions- I also love what April and Sophie had to say too. My heart yearns for you to know the living God, sweet friend. There is no single thing more important in this life.

    5. Sophie from FranceApril 17, 2014 at 11:35 AM

      Oh Mandy, I really love your answer! It's so... I don't know the good word...inspiring? thruthful? Thank you(even if I don't ask question!!)
      (nothing to do with the subject but is your email is also valid?)
      I 'll pray for you and your family tonight and tomorrow night at the church, and I thank the Lord you have placed in my path!

    6. Oh thank you Sophie! I got your email and responded just a little bit ago. I'm so, so glad you're here- it is good to know you!! :D

    7. Thank you all for your replies! I can't say that I agree with everything you said, but it truly does help me understand the Christian viewpoint :)

      Thank you again!

  11. I wanted to share this with you. Without this blog post of yours, I would have kept this inside probably until I died..

    1. Oh Stephanie! I'm just getting to the computer today but I'm leaving you a comment over there too- thank you so much for writing this.

  12. I commend your commitment to your faith, although it is different from mine. What do you think is the best way to convince non-believers to be anti abortion? I think most pro lifers take a persuasion tactic that alienates those of us who are pro choice. I don't think that helps the pro life cause.

    1. great question- I have several thoughts- I will share them as soon as I can if that's okay! :)

    2. Please do. I see passionate Christians using arguments that only other Christians agree with. For example, if you're trying to convince an atheist to support pro life causes, arguments that invoke God aren't going to get you far. Even other Christians may disagree with your view of God - enough that your arguments will fall flat.

      ALSO: I'm anti abortion but pro choice. I believe that making abortion illegal will not solve the problem and will ultimately cause more problems. That is why most pro lifer's arguments don't work for me. They are alienating and make me want to keep away from them rather than listen or discuss.

    3. did you watch the 180 video I added in the post? The premise of the whole video is that believing in abortion is totally against a person's very own logic, and they do a 180 turn in believing without using the Bible in less than 30 seconds.

    4. I'm aware of it and it's well done. I don't necessarily agree with equating abortion to the Holocaust but you're right that they achieve their goal without using the Bible. Pretty unnerving that so many of those people don't know who Adolf Hitler was. :/

    5. I think in our hearts, none of us believe killing is right or okay: that's why those who are pro-choice have to believe that a baby in the womb isn't a baby at all. That's the only reason we've seen abortion become legal. But another question for you to think about: if the government told you you had to abort your "fetal tissue" because it was hampering the environment, would you feel the same way about the early "clump of cells" in your own body and everyone else's? How do the people in China feel about mandatory abortions? Why is it only the parent's right to choose whether it's a baby or not? What will follow when you decide "fetal tissue" isn't a life?

      I believe the real root of the abortion problem is a desire for s*x without consequences- the sin of selfish ambition and fornication, which will only be solved by following God's Word. The moral law is written on the heart of man, but the only way we can be saved from our own sin is by heeding the Word of God, and seeing God for who He is and seeing ourselves for who we are: a sick, wicked people in need of the one true Savior Jesus Christ. Logical arguments are important, yes: they might change the mind, but they don't change the heart. Understanding the transgression of law God has written brings knowledge of sin and a repentance before God, and that's really what we need.

  13. Mandy, Last year I wrote a college paper on how to end abortion. I'd love to share it with you but it is too long to post here. As a two-time, (former) single teen mother I know what it feels like to be put in a position that feels hopeless.

    1. oh could you email it to me? I would love to read it!! mandy @ biblical homemaking . com if you can?


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